Warning. This blog has a few “F” bombs and is completely transparent & honest. No filters have been added to make it “acceptable” in most social settings.
As a graduate of the More Than Existing Level One Certificate Program and current student immersed partway through Level Two, I find myself in all places falling in love with the word Fuck. Why? Because words have been given such power and influence, and I have learnt through my journey into this amazing program to find me. To really search out, find, love and accept me for who I am, and then to go past that to surround this beautiful essence of myself with confidence and a voice that speaks the truth. I have finally found self empowerment, and it came in part when I learnt to speak, say, and take control of the word – Fuck.
Working in the field of energy healing I am well aware of the vibrational impact that emotions, music, language, and all forms of frequency have on the human body. Words in particular have tremendous power and often become absorbed within us, pushed down within the suppression of emotion, only to emerge again as sickness, pain, and mental anguish. I know for myself that I have endured a life time of hearing words like “stupid, fat, idiot, lazy, good for nothing ….” Ironically, the one person doing the most talking and expressing those words to me was myself and my mind chatter. Ouch! But I bet completely relatable, as most of us can be our worst critics. We judge ourselves when we look in the mirror, we judge ourselves when we complete an assignment or task, we judge ourselves in our relationships, the list goes on.
Traveling through the More Than Existing program, I found my identity and with that came the need to truly examine all areas of my life where I was judging myself, especially those areas that caused me to feel small, insignificant, and voiceless. The journey has been messy, full of tears, full of understanding the lies and illusions I had been telling myself, and the end of the discovery (for now) was to emerge from this awareness and declare “I’ve fucking had enough!”
I am done with looking in the mirror and picking myself apart. Yes, the women staring back at me is getting older and dark circles are appearing beneath her eyes, but that beautiful women is tired and hasn’t been taking care of herself the way she should. She has not been eating properly, she is not getting enough rest, nor fresh air, nor spending enough of her day in a full out belly laugh. This is the reality behind the judgement, so then came the action plan.
Within the More Than Existing Program the students have formed the most incredible bonds, this is likely a side effect of having to drop all the masks and pretenses of ourselves and just be real. These fellow classmates (soulmates truly) see the real me, the perfectly imperfect essence of my truth, and I have the privilege of seeing theirs. Earlier this week we decided to get together and just chat, discuss any of the questions provided through the course, share stories, and offer encouragement to each other. Now I have to mention that “getting together” for us means meeting online through zoom, looking exactly like how our amazing teacher would term “The Brady Bunch”, and this platform still makes us feel like we are right in the same room, sharing this incredible bond. The program is taught in the same way, is completely effective, engaging, and immerses you so fully in that you truly feel as if you have been given the front row seat, that this space has been held just for you, waiting for that moment of you choosing to make yourself a priority and enter in through the door.
Our first initiated classmate (really need to just say soulmates here) online get together, had only a few of us able to participate (yes, I understand it was Superbowl Sunday …..), and we intend to keep these weekly sessions going because of the value of just getting together and being real. That discussion probably had the word “fuck” echoed by all of us in most sentences. We were taking our power back! It was ok to not be fucking great this week. It was ok to be fucking mad at remembering a situation in life that was not fair, it was ok to just use the word fuck even though you were raised to not swear. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. When you take the power out of the word (any word) and you use it as an outlet instead of directing it at someone, its meaning changes, your perception changes, your mood changes. That four letter taboo word brought on the belly laughs of those in attendance, our backs became straighter, our eyes looked at the camera, our smiles were large, and some of the weight of life that entered in the door rolled off our shoulders and disappeared with the rolling laughter.
I can’t wait until we meet again and bring more and more totally authentic beautiful people together to just be real.
If your ready to jump aboard this life changing program and make yourself a priority please click the link to find out more. There’s a whole tribe that can’t wait to meet you and help support you along your journey.
More Than Existing – Level 1 Certificate (Starts, February 27th, 2020)
Lots of love,