Last night I fell asleep with tears streaming down my cheeks, my heart heavy with sadness. This seemly occurred out of nowhere, and without warning, but within the light of a new day and reflecting back, I had dropped down my guard allowing myself to finally feel.
When we sleep, we release the need to maintain the masks we so carefully wear for others to see. In fact, we often get so good at this deception that we can stare at our own reflections smiling back in the mirror trying to convince ourselves that everything is OK.
Is it really? Are you truly happy with everything happening in and around you? Have you tuned inwards to check in with your heart and ask, “How are you doing? Is there anything you need?”
We get so busy helping others, listening to their stories, needs, desires, and wishes that we so often forget to check in with our own.
When we turn inwards and nurture that beautiful essence of self, we just may realize that happiness is a choice, and tears a necessary part of healing and letting go. Allowing yourself to truly feel, to examine the emotions pouring out, provides an opportunity to check in with yourself and get clear on what it is you are truly feeling, examining the root of the issue.
Perhaps the energy you are holding onto isn’t even yours to carry? Maybe what you are feeling is empathy for others, their stories, their pain, and the unfairness that often occurs in life?
I know for myself that this was part of a truth. The sadness felt for those around me who recently experienced an unfairness and injustice within their life, but looking deeper down those roots I also discovered a truth I was hiding from myself and a story that has occurred way to often.
I had once again allowed another’s words and emotions to penetrate my heart. A gift of my time, my value system, and open heart, thrown back in my face with a vengeance and anger, not intentionally directed at me but at the unfairness and injustice within the world. I was the victim of another’s lashing out in pain, and I was holding on as if it was truly mine to bare.
When we learn to get clear with our feelings and see the truth at the root of it all, we can begin to heal.
Today is a new day, the tears have passed, the heart is once again full of love for myself and others, and I stand stronger in my desire to be of service, and even stronger yet in my newly establish boundaries of how I wish to be treated.
Today, I will not accept another’s bad behaviour, or fall victim to their circumstance, but rather I will hold space, let go, and allow a higher power to transmute the energy into love.
My heart is a sacred space, my ethics true to my cause. It radiates a happiness and love that I will no longer apologize for.
Today, I hope you examine your own needs, wants, and desires, spending the time to nurture that beautiful essence of you and getting to the root of it all. For you deserve a life of joy and happiness, and we all have been gifted the freewill to choose.
Lots of Love,
Lisa is the owner of Loving Energy Recharge, a Level 3 Reiki Master, Emotion Code Practitioner, Human Design Guide, Business/Life Coach, and current Level 3 student within the More Than Existing™ self actualization certification program.
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