The rain is pouring down steadily here on the island, its sound soothing to the soul.
Water is a purification, a ritual one could say, naturally granted to provide Mother Earth with an essential element needed to stimulate new life, and foster existing.
We are nothing without water. It is essential to our survival, and as our bodies are made up of close to 80% water it is vital that the quality remain as pure as possible.
As an Emotion Code Practitioner, I have been trained to understand how much trapped emotional energy we truly hold within our bodies, and how damaging it is to our health and well-being to continue holding onto.
We experience another lashing out at us and we take that emotional energy in. Someone is upset – we take it in. We watch and witness, or experience, injustice, racism, physical or emotional abuse – and we take it in.
All of this energy of suppressed emotions changes the quality of our life sustaining water flowing through our bodies because we forgot to let it go in healthy ways, and instead continue to suppress and hold onto the stories and emotional baggage.
I remember very clearly being teased as a child. Being called names, being left out, hearing whispers and noticing eyes looking in my direction amongst snickers and giggles. As a child it is hard to understand, why is this happening, and that experience starts to change who you think you are. I became very quiet, and held everything inside. In a world where I felt that I didn’t fit in, it was so much easier to pretend to be shy.
People accept that. “Oh, she’s just shy”, would become the words spoken by my parents, my teachers, and others in my close circle. What happened as a result is that I gave away my voice and my power. I lost my confidence, I lost my identity, I drifted so far off course that I forgot who I truly am. I became so consumed in holding silently onto my pain and protecting myself from the outside world that I built energetic walls so high, so thick, and so tall around me that very few people could get in to see who I truly was.
I wore the camouflage mask of putting a smile on my face and pretending that everything was ok. I worked hard at trying to be the image of the perfect child, perfect friend, perfect mother, perfect spouse, perfect employee. I became perfectly exhausted!
Like most things in life, when you are standing in the middle of chaos and pain, you cannot see the whole picture. You are blind in seeing other people within your stories or looking at things from other perspectives. Everything feels personal and it feels like you are drowning.
It’s when you reach the point of having enough, that you begin to step back and seek out change. This is where the healing begins and you start to take back your life.
It starts with the free flow of tears, the acknowledgement of pain, the hurt, and the injustice. The tears are needed to release what the body just can’t hold onto anymore. It is not a sign of weakness, for those tears bring hope and new perspective.
I have cried a lot along my healing journey, and when the tears slow and I acknowledge that I am ok and am no longer in that same place, or same story, then I begin to notice the beautiful lessons the experience taught me or in strengthening my conviction within myself of how others should not be treated.
Healing is walking me around the outside of the personal story and as I heal, the circle gets larger and larger. I have sat back in that childhood classroom and saw the groups of giggling girls. I remember how they were also on the receiving end at different times. I remember how names were called out to others in the class, how emotions were felt as children and young adults struggle with their own insecurities and carry their own personal experiences.
I learnt to see that it wasn’t all about me. It was a moment in time, an experience and they are responsible for their behaviour as I am for mine.
I am responsible in finding my voice, in speaking up for myself and establishing boundaries. I am no longer a “shy” voiceless child, I am a woman who has learned the power of compassion, understanding, the need for inclusiveness and equality, acceptance and love. I have learned to look beyond the masks of pain we all wear and look instead at the purity of the soul where we all desire to love and be loved.
As a woman I walk a healing journey because I do not wish for the generations after me to carry the pain. I come from a long line of women who have huge hearts, suffered tremendously, and remained silent through it all. No more!
I have stood up as a healer to declare my worth, to find my voice, to let go of the past, and to shape a beautiful future in which I let down those walls and invite in the right individuals by establishing healthy boundaries.
My journey ventures down a path of value and self worth, knowing full well that only I can walk this personal journey and lay my burdens down, and boy have I traveled far!
As a mother of three daughters, I am fueled by a desire to stop the cycle of being silent, and empower them to embrace their authentic selves, whatever that may be. I understand that actions speak so much louder than words, so inspiration starts by walking the talk.
I have been blessed on my journey to find a tribe of like minded women and an empowering guide to hold space as we walk towards self empowerment and self discovery. We walk hand and hand in a desire to more than exist, and we welcome all those that wish to declare, “I am done!” and walk towards their own healing.
When the time is right and your ready to walk your journey, the door is open and we welcome you in to a life of More Than Existing™.
Lots of Love,
Lisa is the owner of Loving Energy Recharge, a Level 3 Reiki Master, Emotion Code Practitioner, Human Design Guide, Business/Life Coach, and current Level 3 student within the More Than Existing™ transformational coaching certification program.
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